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whats up fuckers?! [31 Mar 2009|01:46am] long time no see eh? so just like most people do with this thing. shit isn't going so well. seems like it kinda exploded in the last few weeks. let's see where i can start. my abuelita isn't doing well at all. and hasn't been for a while. the cancer in her brain has spread to almost all of her body and pretty much taking over. her nurse stopped in today and gave us a little update on how much time we were looking at. so it should be around the end of the week. but might be a little more she said. she's been in good spirits. the family really has come together to make this time easier for her, and for ourselves. i just want her to not hurt anymore. i stayed there for the last few days only catching a few hours of sleep. it sucks to not be there. but i'll be there this week. next................ after being with a wonderful and beautiful girl for over two years, i don't think it's going to last too much longer. it's a little too much to type so let's just say this. i made a stupid decision in my past. and that has come to haunt me. it happens. so.....yeah bye. 6 | Lovefool

you know whats pretty fun? [22 Jun 2007|11:48am] ...growing up. Lovefool

why......... [30 Nov 2006|05:35am] do i always fucking do this to myself? Lovefool

[04 Sep 2006|03:49am] [ music | just put on the Fruit Bats ] underwear party = fucking awesome time! i put on these red booty short things, i don't even know? caught people having sex and took pictures of it. i was good too! i didn't hook up with anyone! i could've and i didn't!!!! GOOOO MEEE!!! BOO WOMEN!!! fell asleep there drove home around 6am had work today around 12ish. got a little bit of sleep. then worked with seth. he enlightened me about the "shoes" video on youtube.com. i watched laughed and laughed some more. after work hung out with amber and her friend del. had a good time. shared a few beers, laughs, stories. amber and i went on an adventure to walk in the fountain. twas cold but fun. we took pictures. i make people look sexy....... all in all a good past two days.... 2 | Lovefool

[23 Aug 2006|02:16am] [ music | dj shadow ] back again to bitch are you? -why yes i am, now how'd you know? i can just tell by the music you're listening to. you seem to be very deep in thought. -well, i wish i could say i was happy. well i am. but at the moment i'm not. i just don't know if i should give up. or work it out. or something. i really don't know what to think. and i'm pretty fucking tired of not knowing. i wish this could be easier for me. wishing sucks hahaha. 2 | Lovefool

R.I.P. [09 Jan 2006|02:02pm] my bike was stolen.................... i cried a little.......... this sucks. 10 | Lovefool

nothings gonna change my world........ [23 Oct 2005|03:08am] [ music | death cab for cutie - expo '86 ] somewhere, somehow i kind of feel that i lost a little piece of me. not too sure why i feel like this either...maybe it's because i feel that i have to make everyone else happy before i make myself happy. granted i'm not the best person in the world(trust me i know that), but then again i'm not the worst. we all have our pro's and con's. but just talking with a co-worker of mine made me realize that i need to bring that piece of me back. i want it back. i guess this comes from me doubting myself. and lately, i've been doing that too much. asking myself if i'm missing out on not going to college. missing out on living alone. just missing out on life in general because i work every damn day, all day. i mean i am only 19 years old. i work a full-time job and pretty damn self sufficient. i don't know....... (off topic)i miss the old days. where everyone was friends. no one had problems. we all hung out in a huge ass group. laughing, talking, goofing around like there wasn't a problem in the world. i miss those days. and really wish they'd come back. but they won't. everything will all come together eventually............ 3 | Lovefool

[09 Oct 2005|01:11am] [ music | fiona apple - across the universe ] i don't really have anything to write about. so i'll probably just babble for a little....... the other day i went to my friend dougs band practice and he wanted me to do a little singing. it was fun. although i sounded like compelete shit i thought. but it was fun none the less..... darcy, nick, khanh, ezzo and i hung out the other night too. good times with those kids. the old crew i've missed. they better stick around..... hmmmmmmmmmmmmm..... i'm stretching my ears tomorrow! 3/4 here i come....FINALLY!!! i mean really its about time. so yeah i'm kind of tired but then again i'm not. i drank coffee so i'm a little hyper. i wish i had someone to just go drive around with and bullshit with......but i guess i'll just lay in my bed and watch TV or listen to music till i pass out...... ( blacktino.......! ) 15 | Lovefool

[26 Sep 2005|02:16am] [ music | Copeland - Testing The Strong Ones ] so i can't really sleep. and no one is online. so this is my last resort...... i have off tomorrow and nothing to really do. i may go get a new tattoo. but i really shouldn't. i should start saving my money. considering gas prices are still high and i want to get my bike soon. so yeah........ i uh bought new sneakers the other day. i love them. i used to have a pair when i was little. i'm sure everyone else has them too. but oh well. ( i like them! ) hopefully i can fall asleep soon..... 7 | Lovefool

[25 Jan 2005|11:37pm] i purchased my BANE ticket today.! 6 | Lovefool

[04 Dec 2004|04:54am] i wish i knew what to think. 1 | Lovefool

[21 Nov 2004|06:29pm] i have footprints all over me...... Lovefool

yeah. [01 Jun 2004|10:27pm] [ mood | nervous ] [ music | coheed. ] 24 | Lovefool

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